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(no subject) [Mar. 8th, 2012|10:33 am]

Yay! Bob McDonnell signed a law without transvaginal ultrasound as a requirement. Too bad Transvaginal Ultrasound is the only way to determine the age of a fetus...which is still a requirement of the bill...

SO GUESS WHAT? Transvaginal Ultrasound is still required. State mandated rape STILL passed and was signed in to law in Virginia.

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(no subject) [Nov. 8th, 2010|09:05 pm]
BLINKING RAINBOW TEXT OF DOOOOOOOOOOOM!
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I am struggling [Sep. 26th, 2010|11:42 pm]
My line of work, IT, does something indefensible to its professionals. I am faced with the very real fact that:
  1. To go back to work means giving up control of 60 hours of my life a week.
  2. Even if I seek stability, there is none, anywhere in the industry, at least within a reasonable driving distance to my child.
  3. I will forever need to cultivate a competitive spirit to remain successful in my profession or further risk stability.
  4. I will get next to no vacation.  My experiences with my child will be few and fleeting.
  5. Just by virtue of being stuck at work over 40 hours a week, I may quickly lose access to my child as my busy work week will, undoubtedly, be exploited by Milo's mother.
I am doomed to abandon my child.

What do I do?  I cannot do this.  I would rather live in poverty than neglect my child.

What do I do?  But if I do that, I will become a derelict with a weak support structure for my son.

If I had no fear of consequence, Milo and I would be driving across the world, experiencing it day to day.  In the future, I would pick him up from public school everyday and our adventure would begin there.

I almost want to drop my career and work in the same school district as my child just so I may simply share his hours.

So maybe that's next.  Seeing what schools are hiring IT nerds so I can continue to have an active life with my kid.  Or even more drastic, becoming a career teacher.

What is next?
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Folding Strech Hex-a-Yurt [Sep. 10th, 2010|09:13 am]
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Is the earth not alive? If you prick it, does it not bleed? [May. 4th, 2010|03:16 pm]
I am hopeful about the oil-spill. I think it is the wakeup call we need to keep from becoming further intoxicated with the idea that the solution to the fuel crisis is continued ignorance. Yes, there is horrible loss of life, but a FRACTION of the loss that might be avoiding if we learn from this and hasten our rehabilitation from oil.

Already, The Governator responded appropriately. Obama is back peddling on caving to republican requests for offshore oil drilling. Congress is upping the liability to oil companies. It's a good thing. This is a very good thing.

I am not ignorant or unmoved by the losses, but I believe it is a sacrifice the earth must accept. I believe that life is here on this earth for the chance to SURVIVE the earth and emerge from the earth like we once emerged from the sea. I believe that every living thing, like cells and organs, are working toward this end; toward having ONE of us escape and thrive.

This small sacrifice of life, in the end, is making us more intelligent, more efficient, and more likely to achieve this goal.

I certainly would not desire being covered in oil, washed up on a beach, bound by sludge, and left to contemplate the remainder of my short life; I would not want this to be the fate for my progeny or for my entire species, but I would be eternally grateful if a lesson was learned and a grimmer fate, for all, was avoided.
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(no subject) [Apr. 14th, 2010|12:08 pm]
My god, I think my IQ just dropped sharply watching ICP's "Miracles" video. I love watching videos about people exclaiming the virtues of of concepts they wouldn't even be aware of were it not for 10,000+ years of scientific exploration by man, then saying that these concepts do not require any explanation from "a Mutha Fuck'n Scientist." Can someone show these people Wikipedia, please?



But just because I am feeling charitable, lets discuss how we came to know many of these concepts:
  • "Oceans expand beyond my sight" - We thought they did end at our sight until Early Greek philosophers alluded to a "Spherical Earth" as early as 600BC 
  • "Stars" "sun and the moon" "Mars, Milky Way" If you're OK with stars just being dots in the sky and not wondrous, dynamic, explosive, life giving machines, then, sure, you can ignore the fact that astronomy is one of the oldest sciences.
  • "7 seas" describes the trade route from Europe to China, knowledge provided to us, the reader, by the science "Etymology
  • Stuff underwater? We wouldn't know about a fraction of it without marine biologists.
  • "Hot lava, snow, rain and fog" "Solar eclipse, and vicious weather" scared the shit out of people until "science" illuminated them as natural and reoccurring events
  • "Long neck giraffes" would be totally alien to us if we didn't have biology and veterinary science to thank for for bringing them closer
  • "pet cats and dogs" are the result of 10,000 years of domestication and selective breeding, scientific processes
  • "eighty-five thousand people all in one room" - thank the scientists and engineers who made that safe and made your music loud
  • "together as equals" - Thank Thomas Jefferson, for his philosophical and historical knowledge which helped create our wonderful "American experiment in liberty"
  • "Birth of my kids" - You wouldn't know they were yours without deductions made 10,000+ years ago
  • "Music" can be seen, actually. You probably used visualizers to help mix this very song. And you can hold it, your music is right here in my laptop, right now. I'm holding it. Oh, and Pythagoras, the Greek from your geometry class? He's the father of modern musical scales; the standard language of music. So you can hold all the music IN THE WORLD right in your guitar.
  • "Water, fire, air and dirt" Classical element
  • "taking nothing for granted" except science, apperently
  • "Shaggy's little boys look just like Shaggy, And my little boy looks just like daddy" Trust me, that's not a miracle, that's a curse.


Why take the time to explain away these miracles with science? We aren't. We are exploring these wonders. We are taking what we see and looking deeper and further in to find out what EVEN COOLER stuff we can find. If you think this song is full of miracles...start there, and then dig deeper. The miracles do not stop, they simply take an inquisitive, open, and rational mind to see them.
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(no subject) [May. 18th, 2009|04:34 am]
Much love to Rachel and gang for awesome trip to the beach!
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(no subject) [May. 15th, 2009|05:30 pm]
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(no subject) [May. 15th, 2009|01:11 am]
What they say about kids and spare time is true. Harder still being a single dad. I sought a teammate in Milo's mom, instead I got an adversary. Now I am relieved just to have him by my side. So relieved that I have a hard time justifying sleep to myself. "My god, he's here. I hafta cherish ever moment, because I've gotten so few. Sleep cuts in to my Milo time!"

File this under the things people don't warn you about kids. Becoming obsessed in their existence, but never feeling completely a part of it.

It's been a long time since I've used this sight as a space to empty my mind, and, damn it, my mind has filled up a dozen times over in that time. I don't know how to get back in the swing of things. My life has been a painful blur for the past three years. My attempt to capture the heart and the respect of Milo's mom, and then watching her beat the shit out of mine; my heart and my self respect.

I left her because there was no doubt in my mind that us cohabitation would create a toxic environment for Milo, and while I can't claim to have the power to pasteurize the drama out of Milo's life, I can try and create him a home for him void of it.

Now she's trying to find a place close to mine. I feel the walls closing in on me. I feel her presence growing larger and more ominous. I honestly feel afraid for mine and Milo's life. Whether or not she poses a threat to our physical person, Milo's and my sanctuary is now smaller and more cramped.

We put on a good show for each other. I try to be genuine about my concern for her, because a healthy Milo Mommy is a good thing for a Milo and a strong coparent is a good thing for me. However, her show is made less genuine by crazy, frothing Craigslist Ad's filled with vitriol and hate for me.

Why should I care? Because she is advertising to the world of her future suitors that her son's father is evil. Anyone she lands with this tactic is likely going to believe it, or else they'd not be interested in her story (I fell for this, so I'm I know such people exist.) Obviously, anyone who believes this story will likely perpetuate it...to her, to himself, to our friends...to Milo.

This is a force I fear reckoning.

So much of my life is on hold, waiting for her to get her shit together. I can't date, I can't look for better work, I can't rock the boat at my present employer, I can't let my guard down, and I can't sleep...

...because sleep cuts in to my Milo time.
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(no subject) [Mar. 24th, 2009|08:01 pm]
For Milo's .5 year old birthday, I got him a Ukulele! He likes strumming a guitar, so I got him something more Milo sized and he might, maybe, one day, eventually play...

...and now I'm learning it so I can, maybe, one day, eventually teach him...




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